The Big News

On the fence. Not trying but not preventing. That was where we were. We still were not sure if having another child was the right thing to do. Well, apparently it is because we were quite surprised to find out that we are expecting again. We are excited but shocked. I am due on, get this, April Fool's Day. My Dr. said he will do his best to get me to 32 weeks and then anything after that is just icing on the cake. That would put the baby arriving here sometime in February. We discussed that I am ok with lung immaturity but not brain injury. This will be a risky pregnancy. I am going into it with multiple factors that make me high risk but I am believing that we will make it safely to 32 weeks. I am praying that this will be a healing pregnancy that will help me to let go of so many emotions I still hold so close after the last pregnancy. Don't get me wrong, I would do it all over again in a heartbeat to have Anna here, but it still hurts. I am currently taking my baby aspirin daily and hoping my blood pressure stays under control. I am going to go ahead and start eating less sugar and carbs so that if I develop diabetes again it will be easier to switch over to that diet. We are not planning on telling the kids for awhile so if you know us in real life please do not mention in around them. 8-9 months is a long time to hear them saying "when is the baby going to be here" and it is also a long time for Carly to worry because she still remembers last time. Please keep this precious new one in your prayers. I've got my ticket and I am back on the crazy train...