Saturday, June 13, 2009

Freak Out

Again, it is no secret that I want another baby...or so I thought. All was well until I went ot bed last night and proceeded deep in my head somewhere to have the ultimate freak out. If I am pregnantthis month than I will proceed and be happy about it. If not, I think I am done. I started thinking about the possibilites and the flood of emotions took me by storm. The more I read about APS (antiphospholipid syndrome) and pregnancy the more I think I need to be done. The chances of bedrest are high and the thought of being away for so long again is terrifying. The thought of not bringing home a baby when I come home from the hospital is not a happy thought. The thought of a baby dying due to a crappy placenta is too mcuh!!

1 comment:

  1. I had a freak out like this when we were trying for a 2nd and then when I got pregnant with the 2nd the freak out really began! I just took eachday as it was and once I reached the point when I was pregnant with my son I was greatful for it! Alexa was born at 36 weeks and so far is a normal happy baby!:)
    Whatever you decide to pregnant or not is going to be the right decision for you and your family!

    Good luck:)